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Driving Licence
FossiL Watch
Motorola V3i
Laptop
Converse new arrival
Ipod speaker
Elle Wallet
Nike Jacket
Fred Perry Shoe
Slip ons
Pony Sneakerz
Ipod Mini
Levis
Toyota Rush (U mus be thinkin im nuts!)
Brikens

I've come to learn a few important things in a relationship:

Learning communication skills is not enough. That just teaches us to fight more effectively. Give up on arguing. It always becomes a battle of opinions, and neither of us is likely to change. Forget the theories we have heard.

I think that trust in a relationship is the first priority, for without trust, all efforts are essentially wasted. Now, trust is something that needs to be "built," and the word "built" suggests a process that unfolds slowly, over time. Trust is not something you can simply snap into but rather, something that needs to be built, to be earned. But how much time do we have exactly to slowly build the trust? Life is already so busy and so hectic. I personally feel that trust in a r/s is very important. And im starting to get "sian" of it repeating and repeating. Humans ain't perfect. So 1 day, we might just give up something which we didn't want to. But at that point of time, we're already too tired to think as we had gone through too much. Why is it that people I cherished most always lie to me? The past is like that and now even so, its still the same I'm going through....

My heart hasn't got hard. It just got tougher. Making me not to brood over and feel about uneccessary sad stuffs ever again.

Went to have dinner ytd night with Jasmine at the Bt Timah prata shop. We really filled our stomachs huh? =) The food there was cheap. And we didn't know what was a "tissue prata" so we ordered and try it. And it was like "Woah!, amazing!" Haha.. it looked like a party hat! >_< Before that Jasmine came my house as she needed my scanner to scan her chalet pics.... So boring these few days. And my right leg is so ugly now with patches of blue-blacks. Grrrr.. Tommorrow is 1st of July, which means I will know my timetable, option and course. *Nervous* SIghz.... signing off to sleep again then maybe I'll go out to grab a bite. But I have to find friendsssssssssssss 1st! LoL -ByeBye-








Life without Christ seems a lonely place. 

Every month of this day, something bad and unhappy will always happen. Is it a jinx? Or is it fated?

So bored and moody. *Arghz* -Jumps into my bed and forces myself to sleep-

I had an extreme unlucky day today... *Sighz*...

Met Jasmine at 1:30 outside FarEast. Took 176 and then change to bus 190 to get there. The bus was crowded but still, seats were availble. A girl caught my attention. She was really attractive and beautiful. I guess shes about 16 or 17. And she looked like a mixed. Perhaps indian chinese? I don't know.. She was with this chinese guy wearing the Dover Ite uniform. They sat in front of me. The girl was really beautiful, with starry big round eyes and a sharp nose. Then the both of them started using hand signs to communicate. Later did I noticed that they were both mute and deaf. How sad right? Throughout my whole journey, my eyes couldn't keep off them. I really wonder how they feel inside. I somehow feel the world is rather unfair to them... Sometimes, its things like these that made our heart goes weak and sour. I felt so fortunate at this very moment.

We had our lunch over there. Not that great but still alright. I wanted to find something. After walking for 3 hours, I still didn't get what I wanted. How frustrating and tiring. Then, I saw the 1st item at Takashimaya... Ok.. this is when something bad really happened to me. We took the escalator down. I had no idea why I slipped down the escalator over like 6 steps.. My whole right leg was dragged throughtout. I felt extreme pain. The usual me who is always so " ai mian zi " (wants face) would quickly get up and act like nothing happen because I didn't want other people to notice or laugh at me. But this time, I seriously had no time to care about what others think or see. My leg is full of blue blacks now and its swollen. So damned :(. It somehow spoilt my day....

After walking for like another 1 hr again, I still didn't get the 2nd item I wanted. So I went IMM with Jasmine. It was getting late... I saw the 2nd item. Wait no more and I bought it. By then, Jasmine and I were already extreme tired. So, we didnt had our dinner as both of us were really broke. I spent like $200 today. Im really broke. I cant go out this whole week and I got to start saving for many things.. From IMM, we walked to the Jurong entertainment bus-stop to take bus home. Jasmine accompanied me, thanks to her. I guess she was worried about my leg, but though I didn't know why she's shy to admit and instead said she had lots of time thats why she accompanies me =/ HeLLO!? I know how tired you are so just admit it lahz >_< I actually really wanted to take a cab home but I couldnt afford and bear to waste the $. I've spend like over budget and nuts these few days.

Suddenly, a thought came crossed my mind. I seriously put in alot of efforts in certain things. What if 1 day, all these efforts are going down the drain and vanished? Well, I hope not. Because i've really put in so much time and effort in certain stuffs that theres like no turning back..

I felt extreme tired tonight. Good night guys....

Met Marky earlier on. We actually wanted dinner at Swensens but the queue was so long! =( So we went to Pizza Hut instead... We got our seats fast.. ordered what we wanted. We cldn't afford to waste any time, its simply precious 2 the both of us. Suprised me! He only ate Pizza Hut like thrice in his whole life~ *Fainted*

We ordered from this Malay waitress... *ArGH* And she forgots our order! And we waited n waited.. till our stomachs went growling and we could bear no more. So we asked the waiter abt it. Gosh! She forgotten abt it so we had to wait for the pizza to be cooked... Well nvm, at least we get to chat while waiting >_< ... Then we took a cab back to my home immediately. He was supposed to study his advance theory for tml... *Sigh* I seems to distract him.. Ended up didn't do much. And gosh, he only slept like 20 mins last nite due to the late nite soccer. Sorry if I had distratced u while you were studying manz... Night everyone... School starting soon~ >_<

Ronan Keating - If Tml Never Comes

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes



I really felt much at ease and better earlier on just now... Hopefully things get better... I finally get to see you baby.. your smile still melts me, captures my heart and simply takes my breath away the moment I saw your face. If you can count the no. of trees in the forest, the no. of drops of water in the sea, thats how much I love you. Nightz every one. Im staying awake till 2:35am to see the match between Holland and Sweden =) Hopefully Holland wins.

An Angel kissed my tears away, today when I was sad. I wasn't feeling quite myself, my day had been so bad. I felt a warmth brush by me,
that quickly dried my tears. A gentle, kind, and loving touch, that seemed to hold me near. Immediately, I felt so much better, and the day seemed brighter, too. I guess that's just the way you feel, when an Angel comforts you...


Did nothing much today. Was so shocked that France lost to Greece 1-0 ... Took my BTT ytd night alone at the driving centre. Yihui wasn't there to accompany me becoz our test dates were diff. So I went there alone. There were so many ppl -_- from all age groups... Went to had my dinner at the prata shop over Bt timah there. Hope to pass the BTT so I could get my PDL and start driving on the circuit and on the road wif an instructor. School starts nx Monday for most of my good friends >_<. For me, school starts on the 5th of July. I'll be busy by then. Trainings will start and I will start to have practicals for my driving if I passed the BTT. Got to study hard for this year... Haven't been doing well last semester =( Still yet to know my option.. Hopefully God will give me a chance and guide my path...



How often do people lie? Why do human always tell lies? Be it a white lie or a true lie. Life is full of lies. I lie too. Everyone lies, but it depends on to what extend. Why? Why do some people lie without blinking their eyes or without a second thoughts? This world is so dark, full of lies...


Bryan Adams, my fav. singer. 

Just finished watching the match of England VS Portugal... It was a very close battle. England lost the penalty to Portugal (6-5)... Thanks to Beckham.. He was the 1st to take the penalty shot and he left my brother and my jaws dropped wide open. He missed terribly. Didn't even touch the pole or anything. Way off high up the sky. Everyone was shock. The other 4, Lampard, M. Owen, J. Terry and O. Hargreaves scored the penalty. Beckham was the only one who miss it. Omg, I really have no comments. England could have won! IF BECKHAM DIDNT MISS THE PENALTY and if only ROONEY wasn't injured and out in the 1st half.




Love? or Lust? Btw, I like this show here.. the O.C... This picture is sweet... but once again.. is it love or is it lust? 

LINKIN PARK - NUMB

i'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
i don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to you

i've
become so numb
i can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
i'm becoming this
all i want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought i would be
has fallen apart right in front of you

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
and every second i waste is more than i can take

but i know
i may end up failing too
but i know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you



Notorious cousins sitting the Monorail of the Outdoor theme park in Genting highlands... 


My fav. Lil cousin =) 

Nothing much, I just came back from Malaysia not long ago. Day one there was hell for me. I could hardly get over it as theres still much things flooded in my mind. Did nothing much and spend most of my time alone in the Hotel room sleeping. I felt extreme bored and couldn't wait to go back to Spore..

I think my mum noticed something's wrong with me but she didnt asked. Didn't want them to worry so i pulled myself over. Should spend the holidays wisely instead of thinking and missing about past incidents which were not worth it and dampening my mood. Fortunately, advices from a close fren still runs clear in my mind.. "tomorrow is a brand new day"... Day 2 was much better. I followed the kids to the outdoor theme park. Most rides they couldn't take as they were too young. So I sat most of the rides alone. The roller coaster, space shot, etc etc. Sitting the rides alone was lonely... yea, but since I was already there, may as well just take it. More ever, the more angry I seems to be, the more rides I dared to take... Got to know some strangers while sitting the rides...

As days passes by, I still brood about certain stuffs that happened in Singapore. And I missed my friends so much. How I wished all of you were here with me. Day 3, sat the cable car down and the long bus ride down to KL. The hotel room there was terrific and splendid. I had to share the room with 1 of my aunt and a lil cousin. There was only a king size bed so I slept at the sofa outside. I couldnt sleep so I stayed up late for the 2:45am's soccer match from day 3 to day 4... KL was much better... because I get to go shopping and buying stuffs I like. TIme flies, and soon it was already Day 5. I Wished this holiday had put away all my unhapiness but it didn't. I'm still quite lost. School is starting soon. Maybe life would be more occupied and fruitful then.

I've learnt alot of things. Some things can't be forced and its always better to take life more easily. I think I am too hard on certain stuffs thats why I'm always so moody. Its totally not worth it. When I'm angry for 1 minute, I lose 60 seconds of hapiness. A friend once told me, when u're in tears, Just wiped it away and braved on. The road ahead is still waiting for you to complete.....


Just SCREAM your heart out when you feel like it. You'll feel much better. 

WHERE IS THE LOVE?????????????

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Badness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Nigga, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love

Where is the love
Where is the love
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With the ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on
Where's the truth, y'all, come on
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love

Where is the love
Where is the love
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' in the wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)




Tears 

Its been sometime since I updated this blog due to some things... I think my life kinda sux now. Still waiting for the school option thingy. Kinda worried for it. Lately, so much things seems to happen. Its like never-ending.. Was supposed to join my buddies for badminton today but I had to go somewhere and settle some stuffs so could only ended up lunch with you guys... Catched Harry Potter 3 a few days ago which wasn't that great that i thought. Somehow not as nice as Harry Potter 1 and 2.

Will be going off to Malaysia this Saturday till next Wednesday. Seriously, got an unwilling feeling to go this time round... Its supposed to be fun and everything, but why am I dreading it? My whole mood is spoilt... Plus the SP tabletennis "coach" thingy which is yet to settled and people beside pressuring me and stuffs. Theres still so much things before my eyes thats not settled yet. I've started to lose faith somehow. Totally different from the past me. The past me is usually not lacking of confidence.... Life is short, happy I shall be...

A merry heart makes a cheerful countenance, But by sorrow of the heart the spirit is broken. - PROVERBS 15:13



Wahhaha Oh man Greece won Portugal 2-1 !!!! Wahahhaha ole ole ole ole~ Alot of people lose $ around the world!!!! lol... ok im nuts.. Euro2004, go SPAIN! go ENGLAND! France please FALL!!!!!!!!!!!!! -_-


A picture paints a thousand words. This picture here is rare. It was snapped when the clown didn't take notice. It shows sadness and melanchoy in him. This is how i feel. I said something unintentionally to someone which pricked like a thousand thorns in his heart. 

I miss your smile. I miss your laughter. I miss your voice. I miss everything about you. Most of all, I miss you.

Chicago - Hard to say I'm sorry

Everybody needs a little time away
I heard her say, from each other
Even lovers need a holiday
Far away from each other

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to stay

After all that we've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise to
And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me I can't let go

Couldn't stand to be kept away
Just for the day, from your body
Wouldn't want to be swept away
Far away from the one that I love

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to know
Hold me now
I really want to tell you I'm sorry
I could never let you go

After all that we've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise to
And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me I can't let go
And after all that we've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise to


Once upon a time there was A tiny golden female fish. She wasn't pretty or special. She was simple. She lived by the big sea. She soon fell in love with the Sea Prince. The Sea Prince was well-liked and admired by many other female fishes. The Sea prince used to have many female gold fishes by his side. Usually which he appointed, with not much effort, he would be able to get it. This time, the prince chose this tiny golden female fish. She was really happy. The prince loved her dearly and is willing to sacrifice and do many things for her. This had touched her. She herself liked the prince alot too. They loved each other deeply but they are always doing the wrong things that hurt each other. The 2 of them clicked totally at first. But like other fishes, they soon start to face high tides of the sea. As days passed by, they met more and more high tides instead of low tides. The water of the sea started to get more and more salty. They don't know why that there are always never-ending high tides. They tried in vain to hope that they would meet the low tides, but it seems that no matter how hard they try, their efforts still go down the drain. Perhaps and maybe the Sea prince and the golden female fish are too different. Almost every single things and issues, they had different opinions and pt of views. It was fate that brought them together. Even after this never-ending high tides the 2 of them faced, the golden female fish still cherish the Sea prince very much. She does gets tired sometimes. But nothing can affects her love for the Sea prince. Even if 1 day the Sea prince was to leave her for certain reason, he still will stand the biggest place in the gold fish's heart. The bible states that "love is patient, love is kind". The golden fishy believed in this verse but she is still way off. She is still trying very hard to be patient and kind. The golden fishy thinks that the Sea prince and her is close yet so far. So far... so far so that the both of them loses their mind and senses..


Shrek 2 is a very nice show and i watched it 2 times!! 1st cartoon that I enjoyed so much. And btw, this cat here is my fav CHAraCtEr in the show! Cute right =D 

So embarrassed today. Fell down in front of so many people. More ever, with a loud impact of noise... And yet my friend laughed so loud...It happened when I went to BBDC. >=( Looking foward to this Friday when i'll be going East coast with my friends. Its already the 10th and and there's still no news on the option thingy. Kinda worried. Sometimes i don't know how to let the words out of my chest. Whether when i say it, will i accidentally harm that person with my words without any bad intentions in e 1st place. Is hard to relate to people sometimes... Nowadays I had more friends coming and tell me why is my bloggy always so sad and moody. HaHa, don't worry peeps i'm fine =) But i do feel that BLOG shows the inner voice of a person. Many times we do not know how to convey our message and words to other people and that is what makes Blogger a good place. A place where I can freely give any comments of my own.

The Lord always hears our prayers,
But He does not always say, "Yes!"
Sometimes He says, "Wait"
Sometimes He says, "No"
For He has something better for us.

God's delays are not denials,
He has heard your prayer;
He knows all about your trials,
Knows your every care.

God's delays are not denials,
Help is on the way,
He is watching o'er life's dials,
Bringing forth that day.

God's delays are not denials,
You will find Him true,
Working through the darkest trials,
What is best for you.



Went to dinner with Marky and then met up wif Yihui to go BBDC. Yes, BBDC.... always frequent there nowadays =/ So corny today. Yihui and I keep making fun of Marky =) poor him... I like e way you speak Chinese! soooooooooooooooooooooo damn cute and funny! Oops.. pardon me :)

I had a nice dinner with Marky at Fish & Co in Jurong point. Enjoyed his company =) the sweetesttttttttttt Mosquito on earth. TIME to slp now, close ur eyes, soon the birds will be singing~.. okok its the smurf song. Nite peeps.

Woke up really early this morning to do practice for the theory. Met up with Yihui again and had ice-cream at Swensens. Its always great meeting her. She makes me happy with her cranky nad crappy jokes. I felt that there is this "something" which is really amiss in my heart. I don't know how to explain it, but theres just this thing, staying in my heart feeling not right... The rest of the day should be boring. Guess I'll be at home watching VCDs again as my friends are all broke and they didn't call me out. Zzz bored to death I am.


Clouds taken from a plane. This is really BEAUTIFUL 

Didnt do anything much today or nothing in particular happened today. Just that i saw a very ugly side of a Singaporean driver. How inconsiderate, reckless, unreasonable, irresponsible and vulgar he is. Well everything that is bad describes him! =x Whatz wrong with their attitude? Goodness.. his attitude is scary and that just S U C K S!

This past 1 month was like the roughest patch in my life. Wished things weren't like that. The ideal holidays i craved for turned out to be nothing great at all. If only tml sch reopens.

Sometimes when I speak to God, I think he doesn't hear. My heart is heavy, feeling sad. And no-one seems to care. My guardian angel's always there. Just close my eyes and feel. The peace and love from God above. He sees my pain is real. He'll send the comfort and the peace. Just take his hand, and I'll see there still is beauty all around. All this he sends for free. Glory of God, Lord Jesus~