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30th of Sept.. Hey Dear Shihui, know you would be reading my blog. Wanna wish you Happy 19th Birthday and I love you so very much. You've been a great friend and just to let you know whenever you need me, I'll be there. No guarentee if I'm of any help but I'll definitely try my best. I just love the 4 of you! Miss you =) Hope you like the present we got for you yeas? -Winkz-
*Yawnz* Just reached home. So tired today. Had 5 hours of training till 9pm and then went for supper with my teammates. And shit! It was raining so I had to run home =) My friends always said that I look COCK when I run... Serious ehz? >_< I've been trying v hard to gain weight... When we r stressed, we tend to eat non-stop! Right now I just feel so physically tired... I really feel like skipping sch tomorrow to get back my sleep or to spend the time finishing Friday's report or studying Saturday's PI test =(
Hi peeps. Havent been blogging for awhile. Too much things happened these past 4 days.. Feeling very stressed out and too busy. Theres still 5 more tests coming and then it will be the final year examination. Caught Cinderella story a few days back. It was just an average show with expected plots and ending. I thought 13 going on 30 was better. The only thing Cinderella story attracted me was that guy actor, the prince. He is thin, yet he has this amazing "electricfying" eyes and face structure which made him looked different from other guys but extreme gd looking.
For my driving, I've finally proceeded to stage 2. But still its a long way to go... Fortunately, my lesson starts at 1 pm today and Wednesdays are the only days I could wake up late, enjoy my breakfast, relax myself, reading magazines n stuffs. But well, I have training tonight and still it will be a long n tired day.. Take care my frens.. Ciao!
Went to clarke quay and had dinner with my family to celebrate mum's birthday in advance. So fast and you're 49, mum. And I'm sorry for the times I had broke your heart. Though you wouldn't be reading this, I just wanted to say, " I love you."
Had a super tired and bad day. Bad because I wasn't feeling well the whole day. Felt cold when we took bus. Felt cold in lecture theatres and had slight headaches. Met up with Ziying at her school. Waited for her and headed for Far East. It was horrible. Peak hour. Plus her sch's bus-stop was crowded with smokers. Bought certain stuffs and had dinner at town. Didn't really enjoyed myself very much. Practically too tired and unwell. Hope I'll be alright when I woke up tml morning. Right now, I just feel so unwell physically.
*Goodness* I FINALLY finished my BIA formal report. My whole body aches from yesterday's training. I need sleep badly. *Sighz* Only 4 hours of sleep. Tomorrow long day again... ZzzzzZz.. Night~
*Screamssssssss!* Im so tired... Just finished the first round of tests two weeks ago and now the 2nd round of tests are coming. And right after the tests are our final exam papers. So fast. Haven't really been putting in my maximum effort in studying and I'm always like that. Think its really time to buck up >_<
Had attended the itp briefing and its quite shitty. Right after the last exam paper, we only get to rest for 3 days and off we go to do our attachment. Which means we will start at 8 November. After the attachment, I was told we could only rest for 4 days and school starts. Haiz. So many stuffs to worry about. And I'll need to take driving at peak hour then.
At times I feel I'm drifting away from God. I've denied the holy spirit many times. Some people seems to hate Christianity and Christians alot. And anyone who just says "thank God!" or "praise the lord!" will be insulted by people, even the own Chirstianity family. They go around like.. "haha you must be from City Harvest?" People always seems to have a bad impression or certain misunderstandings for CHC. I'm not from CHC but I've been to there a couple of times. I just feel disgusted that certain churches are jealous of certain churches because of their population and perhaps "well-known-ness". Why? I'm sure it hurts our Father so much to see this. We are all the children of God and we all belong to one big family. We share the same beliefs and thoughts and we should stand up as one instead of criticising each other because of jealousy. Our one desire is to be with our Lord, Jesus. Amen =]
Just reached home from driving and school. Sighz, totally forget about tommorrow's test!!!! Got to burn midnight oil tonight. Arrrrrhhhhhh~ Last min work again. Just like 1 blink of eye, and final exams are round the corner. Poly life is like so damn fast... Study, play, outings and sleep and 1 semester is gone~ I hate Mr Ting's lesson to the core. Whats with the rush? Does he knows that his students don't understand a single shit? Some poly lecturers are very horrible. They make sure they finish teaching their syllabus and thats it. They don't even know that we don't understand wad they are teaching. For his module, many students actually learn and study at home ourselves. More like a kind of self-learning. But still there are some really nice ones =)
This 1 week will be very busy. Have yet to touch much on the 2 formal reports which are due on friday. Plus training resumes on Wed and I kept having my driving lessons keep going. Got to get presents this week and we wanna catch the Cinderella story! before it ends. Right now, I need a nap. =]
Tired. Went to Holland V but the salon didn't open again so we went to Clementi's one instead which Shihui recommended. Not too bad. Ziying's hair was VERY long and she cut it short, but still able to tie up a pony tail. Actually wanted to highlight my hair but its $50 ++ and I didn't bring enough cash so decided to do it the next stop. After that Shihui met me up for lunch.
Wee.. Somebody's birthday coming soon yeah =) hehe.. 19 already.. don't act like kid already... don't so fierce already... Everyday so fiecre! >_<
After reading your blog, Shihui, I really felt touched. Though I do not have many close friends, but I noe those that I have are close and true to me. And you guys understands and accepts me for what I am and who I am. Pulling me out when I was at the edge of falling. I really missed the good old sec sch days when we go through thicks and thins together. I'm slowly picking up the falling pieces of my life. And I'm glad you people are always there to help me and guide me. God gave me wonderful buddies and I thank Him for doing so.
"There are 'friends' who pretend to be friends, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother" - Proverbs 18:24
Something is wrong with my blog? Some of u tell me the words are overlapping? Wierd. When I see from my com everything is fine. Anyways, got to go meet Ziying soon to cut hair.
And I will ask the Father and he will give you another Comforter, and he will never leave you. He is the Holy Spirit, the Spirit who leads into all truth. The world at large cannot recieve him, for it isn't looking for him and doesn't recognize him. But you do, for he lives with you now and someday shall be in you. No, I will not abondon you or leave you as orphans in the storm - I will come to you.
John 14:16-18
Went to school early for lab. Went home for a nap and went for driving lesson. Very ex at peak hour. Pay until my legs turn jelly. *haa* Have yet to catch Cinderella story as we couldn't find the perfect time slot.
Thanks for the teens bible. Thanks for everything today.
Left Outside Alone
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairy tale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe
I don't feel safe.. Ohhh..
Left broken empty in despair
Wanna breath can't find air
Thought you were sent from up above
But you and me never had love
So much more I have to say
Help me find a way
And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone
I tell ya.. All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay
I don't feel safe
I need to pray
Why do you play me like a game?
Always someone else to blame
Careless, helpless little man
Someday you might understand
There's not much more to say
But I hope you find a way
Still I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone
I tell ya.. All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay
I don't feel safe
I need to pray
Ohhh. Pray...
Ohh.. Heavenly father.. Save me father. Ohhhh..
Nothing much. Just a tired day. Went for morning driving practical. My group instructor was very strict and stern. Very particular and making sure that I learnt everything on what he imparted. I liked the way he teach, its much better than the other instrcutors, though he's really very naggy. Its the 2nd time I went out to road, still I felt abit nervous and "kancheong". Learnt about slopes and sharp turns today.
After driving, went to school for lectures till 3. Rushed home to take a short rest and went for dinner and watched The Terminal by Tom Hanks. It was an average show. Rather hilarious but some parts are just to exaggerating.
*Gasp* Darn tired. 2am now. FINALLY, YES, I finished that damn essay. Haha feel so relieved and at ease. *Phew* Thank God =) Got to catch some sleep. Only had 4 hours from now. Gotto wake up at 6am again. *Arghz* Wished I could sleep longer.
*yawnz* Sighz I overslept. Just came back home from driving at around 4plus and then found myself sleeping off till now. I'm so tired and exhausted. Slept at 3 plus am yesterday to finish up some reports. Haiz. Tomorrow is the deadline of essay. Really had no idea how I'm going to scrap it through tonight. Plus I'm really really tired.
Today's driving was fun. I was a lilttle nervous and excited at 1st as I was going off the road. Learnt about gear 4 and driving smoothly at about 70km/h. Its fun. Driving is really fun. I guess u'l find it fun when you really enjoy doing that certain stuffs. Got our attachment log book today which looks so dumb and cock. *hahahahha* And we still have to write a report everyday on what we do during the job attachment.
Sighz. Attachment is on November and December. Holidays are burnt. And this also means driving is peak hour at night for me. Its very expensive at night. =( Right now, I've no more time to think about other stuffs. At times my heart really goes weak and misses him all over again. But what can I do? I can only let it burn and tell myself to move on. Afterall its already the end. Its a must to move on whether I like it anot, whether I want it or not. Just live by some of the memories. More ever, time should heal everything. Sometimes, I just wished I have short term memory or whatever, that would just let the pain go away once and for all... once and for all... don't ever let the pain feeling comes back...
*Yawnz* Its quite late now. And I FINALLY dragged my feet and body out of my cozy bed, refraining myself from further reading the Cleo magazine or playing my pc games, and start working on that freaking essay. And YES I mean it man. Last minute work again. *Sighz* thats just so Jieqi. Wouldn't get her bum off till the last min or till she starts to see the fire burning! Had been trying to close up my driving practical lessons so I could learn and finish it faster. Can't wait to finish it. And yippie! I'm so happy I got a slot tomorrow and on Wed.
Something is wrong with my temper these days that I just can't help but admit I'm scaring some frens away. I feel so apologetic and I feel so P.M.S.Y. Hey Jasmine, if you're reading this post, I wanna say sorry for my sucking attitude today. Thought I should had been slapped =/ Well, anyways, sorry once again. Oh yah, and theres like something wrong with my tagboard. I can't seems to post ANYTHING! =(
School is re-opening tomorrow. Dang! And I'm so happy I passed Dr oct's test. Though it was not high at all but I passed when I thought I would have flung it. Oooooooh! I think I better continue doing my essay. *Night guys!*
"A merry heart makes a cheerful countenance, But by sorrow of the heart, the spirit is broken." -Proverbs 15:13
If God had a name,
what would it be
And would you call it to His face
If you were faced with Him in all His glory
What would you ask if you had just one question
Yeah, yeah, God is great
Yeah, yeah, God is good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
What if God was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make His way home
If God had a face, what would it look like
And would you want to see
If seeing meant that you would have to believe
In things like Heaven and in Jesus and the Saints
And all the Prophets and...
Yeah, yeah, God is great
Yeah, yeah, God is good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
What if God was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make His way home
Tryin' to make His way home
Back up to Heaven all alone
Nobody callin' on the phone
'Cept for the Pope maybe in Rome
Yeah, God I believe in you. I trust in you. My one and only Lord Jesus, my saviour.
Caught 3 movies this week. Yes, I'm a movie freak. LoL. Caught 1 today which I really liked and it was "Raising Helen". Its a romance, comedy movie with Kate Hudson. Like the small girl in that movie, she looks so darn Cutez. After the movie, went for my driving practical. Yeah, as usual it was fun. Learnt about mild bends, gear 3 and certain stuffs. I love driving. The passion is there. And 1 hour 40 mins seems to pass by so fast. Its just like 1 blink of eye. Think I'm too engrossed in driving and learning. The instructor was fine.
Quite hate the new system in BBDC. Everyone is like so damn kancheong booking the practicals non-stop. I have to book now for Nov's practical driving. Just so busy these days. School is re-opening and we havent finished that 40% Doctor OCT's essay. By Hook or by crook, we got to stay up late and finish it. School is so damned man. Need to go back to sch tomorrow still to do the essay. *Nite ppl*
Hillsong - One DesireYou gave it all for me
My soul desire
My everything
All I am is devoted to You
How could I fail to see
You are the love that rescued me
And all I am is devoted to You
And oh, how could I not be moved
Lord here with You
So have Your way in me
Cause Lord there is just one thing
And that I will seek
This is my cry
My one desire
Just to be where You are Lord
Now and forever
It's more than a song
My one desire
Is to be with You
Is to be with You
Jesus
The one thing
The one thing I ask
Is to be with you*Trust in His Plans for He won't harm you. For He will be watching over you and giving you the right route*My heart finally can't take it anymore. Its going to be 2 months, thought I was better, handling this issue well and becoming stronger, but I guess I fell again. Its just a cover, a surface telling my friends and family I'm alright. Just like using a stick poking an animal till it dies, thats what you're doing to my heart be it unintentionally or what. Its just like using a needle pricking through the depth of my heart. Not exaggerating, but thats what I'm really going through for the past 2 months. My heart bleeds, but you people can't see the blood because I tried to cover it, I tried to clean up the mess alone. Every words you ever said probably pricked my heart time and again. I don't think I was the one who changed. My love for you didnt change. But I guess yours did.
Rejection, countless of them, is what I get from you. You're totally abusing my love now. Your heart is probably one of the strongest I've ever seen.Afterall I seems to be just an ordinary girl who just passes across your life. I'm weak. I'm very very weak. And my heart just can't take it this time anymore. Just let me slipped away. Afterall I've lost almost everything. I've lost my options of studies, and most of all I've lost you. I love you and I always will. But I just hate that unreturned love. It tears me up apart everyday. It takes me hell lots of courage to lower down my head, my pride to declare to you time and again about my feelings. But you know what? You never loved me enough thats why you always come out with excuses.
All these really starts to change me to another person. Its starting to make my heart feels numb, make my body goes weak, make my mind goes crazy. Sometimes I think you're really ignorant and unfeeling. You stopped trying. You chose to give up. But I tried everyday until my heart goes numb. But you don't give a damn at all. Thanks for watching as I fall again this time. Thats the difference between our love for each other.You're the first guy that ever made me do all these things on my own accord. Also the first guy whose heart is as hard as a stone that no matter how I try to soften it, I'll never ever succeed.
It doesn't really matters now. What matters is you're happy. And I'm sure you're much happier now. And the next girl you choose better be more true to you than me. Because I gave you my whole heart when I was with you. God knoes I give out my 100% when I was with you. I DID. But I guess its all just so unimportant to you now. Nothing is forever. Nothing is everlasting. Now I truely understands the saying of "love hurts". My heart can't take it anymore, can't take it anymore..I really can't take it anymore... becoz im just a fucker!
Life sucks.
FCUK this endless pain feeling! FCUK this everything and everything! FCUK me for always going back to square one! Fcuk my heart... I just feel like breaking down all over once again.
Just came back home not long ago from a swim. Its really been ages since I swim. I always like swimming. Refreshes my mind and distresses my ownself. Nothing much happened. Just that brother is going back to camp tonight and its finally my 1 week holiday! Yay! Holidays! Finally a one week to finish up all my reports, enjoy myself, relax, and to catch up with some friends. Hey Ziying, Shihui, Miaoyuan and Yihui. I miss you guys terribly >_<.
I never once stopped trying. I will only stop trying when eventually my heart tells me to stop. Don't hide. Don't leave me without any clues. Don't leave me hanging with always an "i-don't-know". Don't always take away my dreams. Don't make my heart goes weak thinking and wondering how you are now. Don't leave me in all these confusion. Don't leave my hopes on a dangling string. Don't run away. Because I said when you turned your head, I'm still standing on the same right spot. Yes, I said I needed to move on. I am. But no one can stop that heart of mine of still having a place only for you. You understand? Afterall I think you would agree with this song. We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it. I was forced to let go of everything very unwillingly. Can anyone just comprehend?
I don't know. Suddenly, I just feel like writing my problems into this blog. Its not hatred. But its just abit of regrets and not-yet-face-the reality. You picked up my heart and then you left it there shattered. Those people who are in the same shoes, I'm sure you guys do look back certain times and hold back your tears isn't it? Afterall, the person used to be so important to you, sharing with you all your joy, laughters and even the tears. But all these are just memories. And time is a cruel fact to erase everything and make it fade. The past love really did make me felt happiness which I had never felt before, but at the same time, also the hurt which my heart had never felt before. I believe love do make wonders. I know everything is over but at times I do recall the past. Who wouldn't? Even if you don't want to, but at times your mind and heart want to, and its not something we can control.
Deep down I know its impossible to regain back everything already. But I just hate the thought of him being with someone else. I just hate it. Selfishness? Jealousy? I don't know. Its just this unexplainable feeling in my heart that no one can ever seems to comprehend. But I know I'm not the only 1 in this shit. Many people are. And somehow overtime, everything just fades so fast. The things you used to put in so much effort for that person, be it how much it is, one day, everything will just be gone like the unfeeling wind. So what I was trying to say was, love is the most wonderful thing on earth, but it can also be the most fragile thing at the same time.
I don't know. But it always seems like guys are much stronger than girls. They can always take it more easy, let go everything and forget everything faster. Whereas girls really take a longer time. Sometimes I just feel so unfair thinking of this. Are all guys like that? *Shrugs* I have no idea when I will open my heart and accept another someone in. I don't know how long it will take for this wound of mine to totally heal. Thus, I really need motivations and inspirations. And I also want to hereby thanks my friends for always being there for me and inspiring me. Therefore, I had changed a new skin, hoping for a new beggining. Just like this blog, I want to race with time and never look back..
*Yawnz* Just finished playing GB with my frens.. Oh yah And in school today we learnt something amazing in our pratical today! it was about cold flex temperature. And guess what. Dry ice could be just made by carbon dioxide gas! Its really fun! Just compress the carbon dioxide gas damn tightly with the cloth and stuffs and u can get dry ice within minutes! Its really amazing =) When I get married I wanna get dry ice! >_<
Just as today when my mood was going down again, I felt picked up again. I wanna thank you. "Life is like a race. Don't ever turn or look back for there is no point. Always look ahead of you and keep running." I will always remember this. Thanks for letting me know, I'm not alone in this hole. After all the ups and downs I had gone through for the past 2 months, I'm determined to put everything behind and look foward this time. I know its hard but its good to know that I'm really half-way succeeding. Its not runnng away from it this time. Its nail hit nail this time. I want the things to be officially out of my mind. I want him to know, even without him, I'm still able to be happy. I'm still able to smile. Afterall life is not just about boy-girl r/s love. I love Jesus, I love my family, I love my friends. Thats the most important thing now.
Wee Haa!
Kor just came back from army camp after the first 3 weeks! I really misses him. Though we used to have this "not-so-close" relationship, I still truely misses him. Perhaps this is when the saying comes "no one is better than your own family" and "blood is thinker than water". Kor changed alot! He looked much better. With Botak! And dark tann skin. And he finally slimmed down quite alot! Guess if he really slims down, he will look good. *haahaaz* Can see that mummy misses him alot too. Well glad that he is going through army, and definitely, he had changed. Wee.. going out for supper now. Night guys!
My life was just in shambles
Till Jesus came along
He clensed me and forgave me
And filled my life with song
And He's the reason I can sing
Of love beyond compare
I have such joy in knowing
Someday I'll be with him
Touch his hands and see his face
I'll sing such praises then.
No matter where you are, what you're doing, when you turn around, I will still be right here standing on the same spot.
Yay!
Yay finished tml dead due's formal report. finally~ Also catched Singapore Idol just now. Yay~ Christopher and Daphne went in... Ok ok~ Gonna sleep now. tml morning sch again =)
Short day...
Finally the 1st day in the week which I can reach home early and take a good nap n sleep. *Yawnz* I seriously havent been taking a long good slp for long... But still tomorrow have to hand up 1 formal report. Met up with Ziying and Shihui they all to go back to Ntss. Wee.. saw some of our teachers and had a nice chat with them. Mr Malik was still as humourous and young-at-heart as ever. And mRs Long was still as BLUR as ever! LOL~
Unknowingly, they are growing older with more white hair. *Sighz* They are like so stress teaching the students =/ Haha, but im really grateful to some of them. Without them, we are not partly of what we are today =) Afer that we had lunch and they were supposed to go back school for lecture so I went home... Anyways I gtg do my report now. Cya.
Nothing Much.
Wee.. Nothing much today. Went to school for test and lectures. Didn't go for training in SP. Went to NP and find my friends instead. There was the Badminton IVP going on there too. Very tired.... BIA havent finish. Already owe teacher 4 days. Dead meat. Hope Mr whey is kind enough not to deduct our marks. Angela left her bracelet in school. She was damn sad. Went back to lecture room and thank god she found it! hehe its an expensive bracelet given from her boyfren for her b'day present...
Saw alot of ex sec sch friends at NP today. Really misses them. Sec sch days are the days when your true and closest friends are together. Cause We shared the laughter, tears and joys together and gone through every shit together yea? >_< Poly frens are like not very close and far off. Sighz. Ever since I entered poly, I found that there are alot of hyprocrites. *zzz* After that, went to Westmall for dinner and I just reached home. Finally can have a gd rest and relax abit after all these tests! *PheW*!