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Damn, moodless to study. *Really got to force myself* JUst Hate exams period man. Super sucky. Got a call from Ziying today. Heard that her attachment is at the TOY "R" SUS at Forum orchard or sumthing? Damn, so poor thing. Working there like a normal sales girl with no link of business studying. And the worse is she had to work on Sunday! How shitified can it bE? Haven't been seeing her for such a long time. Really misses her =( Hopefully you can join us on Friday night if possible =) Damn, got to get back to my books now. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
2 papers are down. 3 more to go. On the 1st, 2nd and 3rd. Ahhhh.... Can't wait to clear all of them. Have yet to write my introductory letter to my reporting officer for my attachment. Going to my attachment on 8th Nov, Monday. After exams I had 5 days of pathetic holidays and I'm going to enjoy the fullest out of it. Next week will be an extreme busy week for me. Sighz, time seems to pass by so fast. A blink of an eye, and soon its Chirstmas! Can't wait for Christmas too! hehe >_<
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
She wants to go home right away.
Exams period... Really sucky =( I love this song, but it brings too much saddness and feelings.
Had my 1st examination paper today. Overall its hmm.. Not very hard but not very easy either. The MCQs were killers. Meeting Jasmine for dinner soon. Hmm, downloaded loadz of movies. Yet to have the time and cacth it.
As I was having lunch with a group of friends earlier on, I noticed not many of us know what we want to do. After graduation, our dreams, our goals, our future. Everyone seems to be floating on the same "i-look-at-u, u-look-at-me- boat". We study so many years since young. And now 3 years just to get a paper. A cert. A diploma. Not even a degree. Life in Singapore is really not that easy. The standard of living is so high. As we grow older, we can't help but start to get worry.
What do we actually want in life? As I spoke to my girlfriends today, so many of them are scared off by marriage. Because of their family background, etc etc. Women nowadays seem to have marriage phobia and rather just have fun instead of getting tied down. Its quite sad. This world is changing. Everynow and then on the streets or in a pub, you see a string of women just going for fun, no-strings-attached relationship. Is it a bad thing? Or is it showing the world that women can be capable of playing too if they want to? All these are just the very ugly side of human beings. So much so that I'm sick and tired of it. Seriously.
I'm tired. Ignorance can and should be a bliss.
Juz reached home. Life is better now with the freedom my mum gave me. I've always craved for freedom but to a certain degree of extend. Too much freedom is not too good either. Anyways had my dinner at home and then I was still feeling darn hungry, so Jasmine and I went to KAP for another round of dinner.. LoLz..
Hmm, after that we went to view some Vcds and Dvds from Video Ezy. Jasmine rented a Vcd. Lookz kinda nice. Too bad I couldn't have the time to watch it. After that, we chilled out at Liquids. A wonderful quiet night chatting with her =) Gotto study now. Ciao guys.
USHER rocks =) heres A nice song from them =)
This week supposed to be the STudy break. But seems like I didn't make full use of it and study much. *Sighz* The new 9pm show at channel 8 is so nice. hehe.. Nothing much to update. Just that I had been busy preparing for exams and taking driving at the same time.
I had a wonderful day today. Thanks.
I used to be willing to give up everything for just that one person. I thought I had found someone worth me doing everything for him without a second thought. Someone that actually makes my world spins around, makes my breathing go heavier. Someone whom I wanna wake up with every morning, cry with and laugh with. Someone I wished I could cling and hold on to forever and never ever let go.
Somehow, I thought I learnt alot after everything. More stronger in a sense and much more braver. I never wanted people to see the weaker side of me. Everything was meant to be broken in the end. But those were really wonderful memories. Once in a while, I still can't fight shedding a drop or two tears when I recalled the past. Or whenever I take out and view at the pictures, I became all silent and my vision starts to get blurred. I guess no one will ever understand how empty and lost I had once felt before. But the stronger side of me never fails to tell myself "hey, its ok. Its over. Look on ahead and continue with life".
I'm really much better now. Its scary. Everything just fades away. Fades away so fast with time. At times I questioned myself how could it possibly fades away so fast. You still missed that 1 person but as days past by, the feeling just subsided and slipped so fast.
Thats when I noticed and learnt about one harsh reality of life. Though a loved one left you, be it gone, death or whatever, for the first few months, u'll be struggling like mad, finding air to breathe. But as months past by, years past by, u'll noticed and understands that it really does goes away day by day and there will be one final day, when that feeling totally dies. That is when we start to feel uneasy and kept questioning ourselves if we've started to become cold hearted. But the truth is no. Thats because we're living with time. We're racing time.
I really wished to do something I like right now. I really hope to achieve my goals, chill out with my buddies, worship Jesus, wait for the next right guy, change for the next right guy and study hard. Right now, I just hope to clear my exams. All my friends, its exam period, please take good care of your health and God bless all of you =)
Its been a hectic n busy weekend. Really can't wait for exams to end. And I missed all my friends. the 5 of you...... And I've so little time right after my exams... *argh* *Pissed*
Spent the whole morning downloading semester papers. total of 14 sets. Gotto finish them before I go on battlefield for the exams.... After that rushed to Orchard to celebrate Jasmine's belated birthday. Hoped she enjoyed herself.
After that, passed by Willy's working place to look for Vcds. I got a discount rate as he is a staff there. Then I rushed home. And now I'm off to my grandma house to celebrate my grandpa's 90 birthday! Wee!
I love this guy here! 10/10... *droolz*!
just finished power point slides and 2 data sheets. Finally can go to bed.
S T R E S S E D .
Can't wait for exams to be over. Next week is study week which means we should stay at home and study for the coming papers. Really can't wait for exams to end. I've got Sims 2 waiting for me to play and lots of movies and Vcds which I seriously can't find the time to watch it yet. After exams, I get to rest for 4 days before my attachment and I guess I'll play like mad for that 4 days!! I'm quite fortunate to be posted to a big company, with 3 of my classmates exactly the same as me. Wow wow wow~ Im not alone! Nightz >_<
I love God. He allowed me to see the light of life. He made me understands that without failures, theres no success. He made me see that without setbacks and disappointments, we couldn't be stronger. He let me understands that without losing, we wouldn't learn how to cherish. He always ensured me that theres always a sunshine after the rain. He made me understands that I'm never alone and that I choose my path and own choice of happiness. He made me realised that all are just a factor and matter of time. He made me stronger. He gave me light and hopes.
Since young, I was never a straight As student. I'm always a "C" grade student even up till now. I was always low profile in school and not noticed. I've never really outshone in terms of popularity or academically. The only proud I owned was my CCA ever since primary school. But I trust in God's plan for me. The route which He had planned ahead for me is long and I'm anticipated to discover all that slowly..
Today is Jasmine's birthday. Hehe little Snoopy I knew you would be reading this so please see:
You had been a great buddy / soulmate all these while. You was there by my side through my ups and my downs. You were the only one who saw the weakest side of me. And I thank God for a friend like you =) You bring colours into my life... and Happy 19th Birthday.. I wished you will be happy.. and that your prince charming will arrive!! HHAHA!! Hey you little girl... I BOOKED YOU on SATURDAY. Though its belated, but I hope you will enjoy that day! Its kinda last min planning... but yea... love ya!! =)
I'm totally stressed out... Rushing all the reports and final year exams is just in 2 weeks time. Feel like my head is exploding..... Got my attachment letter. As predicted, I was posted to TUAS... well at least not CHANGI... Most of my classmates got posted to Tuas and Woodlands lab area.. except for few in Changi area... And thank God Cheryl got posted into the same pte ltd as me. That means I don't need to eat alone and feel all alone... Well, at least I dun need to face the uncles alone! alright, I'm just joking... Gtg continue my work. Ciao guys!
Nothing much happened today. Went to get a new specs. Something better and more fashionable which enables me to go out wif contact lenses at times now.. well at least i hope... lol =) tired~ Night..
Nobody knows what she feels or holds back.
She hides the bruises with linen and lace.
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask,
Bearing the burden of a secret storm.
Sometimes she wishes she was never born.
In a world that she can't rise above,
But her dreams give her wings,
And she flies to a place where she's loved.
Somebody cries in the middle of the night,
The neighbors hear,
but they turn out the lights,
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate,
But her dreams will keep her moving non-stop.
She promised...
Arrrr! My muscles aches all over. Went to Sentosa at 9am with quite a big group of friends. The weather today rocks. We canoe for long and had fun swimming and playing the frispy n volley ball. The guys are so lame to play Dodgeball! hahaha~ something associated with the movie. Something really bad happened to Grace in the sea. Gracey, hope you're fine kaes? And hoped you enjoyed urself today =) Thank God that we needn't need to wait too long today for shower. The lasttime we went we waited almost 2 hours! Got to thank Zhongzhi for lending me his towel as I forgotten mine =/
After that, we went to Harbour front and had our dinner.. And OMG! Poor Baozhen... Struggling herself with that "hot stuff" food... Angela and her friends didn't join us as they went to watch the concert. Actually wanted to go as they had lots of tickets but its 5 - 11pm. Plus I hate the crowd so may as well forget it. After dinner, took a long bus ride home and I can't help but slept like a piggy in the bus... Zzzz~
Today's BIA test was not very easy. Mr Whey's part is so difficult, but Mr Ho's part was alright... Numerous hilarious incidents happened in school today. The leafy incident and Li Fong's incident >_< Right now, I'm feeling very worried. I know I'm going to get a horrible scolding tonight... I'm prepared for the worst. May God Bless me please...
Ah Ying you look so Cute in here!! -PINCH CHEEKS N SQUEEZEEEE!!!!!-
Telling you everything yesterday night makes my breathing more heavy, makes my heart goes all weak and makes me go guilty and sinful. Its been such a long time since I had this feeling all over again. I was thinking hard, took me too much courage to ever tell you or anyone the truth, yet I was afraid that it might changed my opinion in you and those closed to me whom I love dearly. In the way you will see me or look at me. But I know and got the assurance from you, that it'll never changed that impression you had.. I see it as a golden chance for me to let everything out, to totally get the rock off my chest.
On the other hand, I felt lost and confused, because I know I had done many wrongs, and all these are just so sinful this time. I'm glad you lead me to the prayer, made my heart feeling less heavy, and a total new person, trying to repend on those sins. I'm human, I ain't perfect, but I love God, and I know that all the things coming back to me at times when I'm all alone is God's little punishment for me. When we made mistakes, we bear consequences. Likewise, responsibility is the same. Certain things you had done, it means that you have to pay the responsibilities. Lets not say pay, but its just a basic conscious in your soul. I don't understand, but at times to certain human beings, they just feel no sense of responsibility there.
I'm very happy to have a guardian angel. Truely. But no doubt that my biggest fear is that it will really changed the way you see me... Its been quite long ever since I had this burning sensation in my heart all over again. I wanna scream but no words came out. I wana breathe but I find trapped. And I guess thats why God send you here to guide me and encourage me all the way. In short, at times, I'm really afraid of losing a guardian angel or soulmate like u. Yet part of me wanted to act tough and all, kept telling you that I'm always fine.
Have you ever wonder why people cry? Be it crocodile tears, fake tears, true tears, heart breaking tears, tears when you lost a loved one, tears when you failed in life, tears when you're stressed, tears when you're sad, or even tears when you're happy? At that point of time, you had so many things running thru your mind or even at times your mind is blank. Have you ever wished this world had no such thing as Tears or Love? Sometimes I wonder and wonder. What's heaven like? Will there be tears over there? I really don't know. But I know Heaven is somewhere everyone wished to go, and for Christians we truely believe its there when all kinds of love exist. Its just so amazing. Everything... and no doubt God made "love", all kinds of "love" to make wonders.
But very sadly, in life, we will meet 3 persons. One is the one you love most. After you found the 1 you loved most and know what its exactly like, then you'll meet the 1 who truely loves you for who you are. And even sadder, the one we love most, won't love you equally back as much, while the one who love us most, we will never love him/her back the way they do. And lastly, we'll meet the person we spend the rest of ur lives with, and that is our husband/wife. Even more sadly, the last person we ended up with in a marriage is not the 1 that we love most, or neither its the 1 that loves us most. Its Just THE ONE because both of you happened to appear at the right time in each other's life...
Feeling freaking pissed and low today. All because I lost the damn hard and soft copy presentation slides which was supposed to be in my diskette. Some problems with the diskette and I had no choice but to format it. Miss Ng wants it all by next week. And because of this, my group members have to re-do their part again. I felt damn sucky and guilty. Im truely sorry Grace and Angela. To think that at this point of tests and exams weeks, I still caused you guys to re-do it. Haiz...
Pok's practical test was alright today. Alright because no one practically study for it except for a minute amount of peeps. And alright because Mr Pok is well-known for his blurness that EVERYONE of us was copying like nobody's business... Theres an important test tomorrow. Gtg study now. Take care guys~
Its been a hectic and long weekend for me. PI test is down and 3 more tests to go this coming week.. Argh! I didn't score at least 33/50 for PI so my free Seoul Garden is gone!! =( Stupid Guangqiu you must be grinning and damn happy right? Can save up your money~ Haaz.. I've spent way too much for the weekend. Watched Wimbeldon on Saturday and watched White Chicks on Sunday. 2 movies on weekends cost me a bomb! >_<
Wimbeldon is about tennis and romance commedy. Its not too bad but its very exaggerating in the way they played tennis. I like Kristen Dunst in this movie. She looks very beautiful and sexy in this show. I never used to really like her or think shes really beautiful or whatever. But this show kind of changed my angle on her. Anyway the lead actor was Boo! Overall, I find that this show was only average.
If you want a great laugh off your ass, White Chicks is the one!!! Its damn hilarious and if you wanna distress yourself, I would recomend this movie. Hmm, I personally like this movie alot! I've been laughing non-stop ever since the start of the show =) Went to Lido to watch on both days, and both days were crowded with people. I guess Singapore is soooooo boring that everyone is either watching movies or singing Ktv >_< ..Did some shopping and I bought an Adidas shirt which I really love it!
There seems to be so much things to do which can never be done and yet so little time to finish. I've owed Miss Ng her report for like ages and I hoped she wouldn't deduct my marks =( Can't blame anyone! I'm too lazy. Oh exams exams! Exams are round the corner.... Exams fever!!!!!